Sianzzzzz x730days

Sianz, sian,sian,sian,sian and si bei sian....
now thet time now is 3:45pm... Sunday afternoon...
it is fu*kin hot and warm.... i am feeling very irritated becos
of the boredom that is getting me... i dunno y is there such
thing call boredom in this world and i dunno what thing to
do to kill off the boredom... if u pple recommand sleeping...
i juz wake up.. thank you... and i wake up from a rather stupid
dream...

i dream that.... i open a door.... there was a pond of a size of
a half volley ball court... inside this pond... there is alot of
lobsters, crabs and prawns... the pond looked like those steamboat
soup becos the creature's shell are all red in colour but they are
moving around lively...
in that dream i am trying to catch the one of the prawns... but who
noes.. those creature seems like coming to me trying to save the
prawns that i caught... fu*kin hell.. so i catch them one by one...
but got alot coming.. i one person cannot tahan... so in the end
the basket tt i put the creature i have caught got overturn and all of
them escaped..

Then i wake up... stupid rite... fu*kin hell... after i wake up... i dunno
wat to do... mainly becos i noe i am going to book-in tonight i am
really sian becos i dun wan to book-in... tomorrow is my field camp..
i am going to tekong to do my field camp..
Shit.. this is getting boring.. y is the army in this world.. cant everyone
live happy? y war? y war? fu*kin pple...

Do i feel bore becos i lack of love? izzit? recently my friend is troubled
by love... i have been a listening ear to him.. i realised that many many
things in this world we cannot control... i feel that we humans are very
small... the things we can do are very limited... yet sometimes we try
to slack around and dun do any thing... and sometimes we try to do
something but yet cannot be done?... y?
Two person brought together is due to fate? but then again y doesnt fate
hold them together? and they have to split?...
Hai.. i dunno wat i am tokin now.. maybe i should stop and go back to
sleep... so i can continue to dream of those fu*kin sea-creatures agin....

After enlisted into the NS... sometimes i walk round the street... i have
been observing pple.. of how they treat their son... how some of the
pple pamper their son until dunno like wat... i always think until they
enter the NS then their fu*kin pampered son will learn wat is the truth
of the world... and they will suffer inside the miserable camp... everytime
call home to complaint everything... that always make me feel better..
i dunno y.. am i a sadist..? or am i lack of love...? maybe having someone
to talk to will make me feel better...

Everytime i go out with my friends, sometime i dun talk alot becos i
treasure the moment, the time that i am with u pple... becos at that very
moment, i feel that pple exist for a reason... to keep each other company,
to keep each and one of their life filled... so that the boredom doesnt disturb
one's life... i really treasure those moments... so next time.. when i dun talk,
dun disturb me.. becos i am tresuring the moment...

I am getting more tired then ever.. tired of everything.. life, things that i
do.. games... mentally, physically... i gaining no interest in very thing i do...
i feeling like i am inside a can... waiting for someone to open the can... bring
me out to see... i like to see a world, where that is no arguement, where there
is no shouting here and there... beautiful things around... clear blue sky...
beaches.. bikini girls... friends... houses along the long beach... see pple that
i like... running around like no body business... i dunno how long i will take
to recover... izzit becos of NS i become like tt??.. can some pple tell me? pls?
this tireness has been making me staying at home... trying to make me sleep..
making me bore... i need someone to talk to me.. tell me wat i am.. who i am...

Last time.. i dun usually go out with pple, maybe becos i didnt realise how to
socialise with the pple around me... and tt make me a road idiot.. may places i
dunno how to go... pple laugh at me... but i dun mind.. becos every pple are
learning... there may be something i noe more then u.. then i will laugh back
at you... that is my mentallity... haha...

At times, i feel that one doesnt need to have alot of friends.. becos i feel that
one only need friends that are truth... becos u will slowly realise u only contact
a handful of pple in yr handphone contact list.. the rest? huh.. who are they?
i always tell my friends tt hey, dun always put the word "friends" in yr mouth...
i find that it is very irritating... becos everytime time u sae.. pple will always put
hope into that.. but when times come that one needs help... the person will
suddenly become stranger to you and give alot of excuses... i dun wan that to
happen... thats y i dun like.. becos i noe truth friends are the ones who help
silently behind u... i like the feeling of helping pple silently... becos i like to see
their faces when they get rid of their trouble...

Acutally, i dun like to help pple... but then, everytime i see my friends who are
in trouble.. i feel for them... and when they ask for help.. u will juz naturally nod
yr head and give them yr hand... not a question ask...

I have a group of friends tt i spend together for more then 8 years aledy since sec
sch days... every weekend we played soccer together... i like their presence
around... becos they always able to make me feel that i exist.. hehe.. although
everytime we suan each other, but at the end of it... u realise tt this little little
things are important to keep a group of pple together... it is this very small
effort that everyone put in.. the very little time we take out from our busy life
that keeps the friendship together... i treasure this friendship very much... as well
as the friends from my poly... maintaining friendship is not easy... becos human are
lazy by natural, pple take things for granted... many pple come and go out of my
life.. i take that very easy... becos i feel that.. i dun need any more or less friends
any more, i feel the friends i have now is enough... they are good pple... really good
pple... who i consider.. as friends.. having them around me makes me feel happy...

Now is aledy 5:08pm.. i have been writing for very long time.. and i still got lots of
things to say... but somehow.. the tireness is telling me to stop... haha.. no more
strength to overcome it aledy... friends who are reading.. well... if u feel the same
or any thing for wat i have sae.. do pls tell me... or leave a message to me.. haha...
well, this is the little effort tt i have mentioned to keep friendships together...

Ming Tian Hui Geng Hao.... (tomorrow will better).. is wat i always tell myself..
hope it is really like tt...

Days in Army...

Hello everyone!!....
so nice to be typing letters to my blog again ...
well.. like everyone noe that i had been enlisted for already
1 month and 1 week... hehe... dun worry lah... the training is
fine and i am working out fine oso... so far every buddy of
mine is going through BMT... after our PTP (Physical training
phrase).. everyone is looking forward of the further training
as well... i meet leonard,who are the new recruits, and is under
confinement stage inside... and i am able to book out weekly
already...

To Poly friends... haha... aiyoh.. so long never meet u all liao..
maybe i get a long weekend will find time to meet u all ok?
Not that i bo sim(heartless) ok?... haha.. just because my book
out schedule to busy.. haha...
1pm book out...
2pm reach home...
3.30pm play soccer with sec. sch friend (must!)...
7pm reach home after soccer...
8pm dinner...
9pm weekly meet out with sec. sch friends
4am reach home cum sleep...
11am wake up
11.30am breakfast...
12pm computer...
2pm out to shop things for camp
3pm back at home rest...
5pm pack bag..
5.30pm fold smart fold...
5.40pm rest again...
6.30pm dinner...
7pm bath...
7.45pm left home...
8pm meet buddy...
8.30pm board bus...
8.45pm reach camp...

very busy rite? haha.. well still sorry for not finding the time..
guess we will see each other at our grad day!!!.. looking forward
to that day... if u all wan to return me the things u all owe me
oso can!!!... bring on the grad day ok? but bring a plastic bag, cos
i need to bring back to camp... haha..
miss u all!!!.. sms me when free!... cheers! :)

last time...

hmm.. hi fellow friends... guess this is the last time i update my blog before going
to army... hehe... well.. today is a beautiful morning... me wake up at 10+....
had a nice 2 piece chicken pie... left by my sister... and just finish a cup of
3 in 1 coffee... hehe.. gonig to take my anti-biotics soon...

For the rest of my day... well may not be going to catch up with my old poly
schoolmates... haha... me still sort of somethings and going to buy later at
Tampines Interchange... a penknife,bag and a marker... haha... well still can
see a bit of "za bo" and buy "toto"

Guess it will be two weeks before i will be meeting u all again... so... dun need
to miss me so much lah... ok?... especially the gals ok?... a bit buay pai seh
but that what i am rite? HAHAHAhahaha... people who are sick (waileng) pls
do take care of yourself and people who doesnt like their working environment
pls tolerate bah... the best is still yet to come... people who are feeling down...
scroll your contact lists bah... there are friends out there!... send a text message
doesnt cost that much... and lastly.. people who o me things... haha.. i will get
from u when i get out!!!...

I AM VERY "FAN"!!!!

The words above mean that i am very frustrated, feeling uneasy, stress, and lots of
uncomfortable feeling gathering around me...

I worst thing is.. i dun noe y!!!... that's y i am pissed off by wat i am doing... in watever
thing that i touch, i do, i see and i eat.

Life getting really bored huh... for my friends out there, who are working now...
seldem meet them due to our different working time. hmm... hardly there is
anyone to talk to... my sister.. i haven been seeing her for days.. i swear!!... although
my room and her room is juz 10 steps away... becos of our diff working time... i haven
see her for ages...

Everyone seem to pull a long face at each other... conversation lasted no more then
10 sentenses... people raising their voices at each other becos of very little things.
why?... issit becos of we are growing up? or issit becos of so called "pms"?
or is there simply no love at all?...

The feeling of "sian" is in the all... maybe next time the computer is the only thing
we can depend on... and simply doesnt care or give a damn to whoever live next door,
juz busy chatting all the way... facing the monitor all day... work, eat, sleep before the
computer... will it be the way of living the future... so that there will be

Less human contact = Less friction = Less quarrels = Less hates = or Less sense?

A story to share, once there was a King and a Wise man... the king had never step on
the ground with its bare foot... one day, the king is curious of how a grass might feel...
so, the king remove his shoes and step on the grass patch... he sae,..

The King,"Ohhh, the grass is SO COMFORTABLE!...."
The King ordered his men,"i want all the streets in my city to be planted with this sort of
grass, even into the house of everyone.!!! hahahaha"

His men moved on the carried the King's order but is stopped by the Wise man.

The King,"how dare you stop my men from carrying my orders!"
The Wise Man," Instead of planting the streets with plants, why not you make shoes
that has the base finished by the plant? so that people still can enjoy
the grass but are not force to change their environment..."

Well, maybe some may not understand due to my lousy english... haha..but i dun care
abit..actually the moral of the story is actually adjust yourself to suit others, not
forcing others to suit yourself...

I can sing a rainbow... sing a rainbow too...

Kind of find the advertisement peaceful... the Australia one!!!
it really brings out the nature, the people and the spirit of Australia...
haha..

Well... kind of busy recently.. busy working, working, working, working and
working...
Although i still able to find some time for gatherings... but is feeling abit sick...
haha... i'll be okie for the next few days i hope.. hehe..

No time for my own hobbies recently... playing soccer on saturdays.. watching
soccer at night and playing mahjong... haha... busy reading other people's blog
to see what are my friends doing... ( Angela.. pls watch for your body... take care!)
WESLEY.. TAKE NOTE!!!

Today has got no live football match... well my gang now are gathering at jiaxian's
house... guess playing mahjong or play ps2.. figuring how to beat me?? haha...

Now serving net... feeling si bei sian... msn got no pple except for Mark and Nasir..
but both on away mode.. guess i shall not disturb them...

hmm.. i think i need to rest a few days before going NS bah... think i need to go
few round in the stadium... train my stamina... before some solid training in the
camp!!!... hmm.. see ya everyone!

Belated birthday!.. hehe

Yesterday on 7/5/05, Sat. i celebrated my belated 20th birthday
with my poly friends...
including: Diana,Xinyi,wei yin,angela,wei ling,azzah,wesley and mark!

thanks for the cake and present very much!... haha.
haha.. after working at my factory... went home and decidedd to meet
them at heeren. went up to the fifth storey to lookout for them. but
onli get to @@ Diana,xinyi and wai leng shopping... haha
came to realise the plot when diana sae they went to eat... dun need
go look for them while Xinyi keep saeing she haven eat and is very
hungry..??.. haha.. though i noe something's gonna happen but
celebrating my birthday at the middle of the heeren was realli
something special!!.. thanks and i appreciate very much...!!

also wei yin Bu xiao xin burnt her nails while lighting the candles
for me.. hehe.. take care hor...!!

c ya pple again... bye bye
oh YA.. haven really wish wei ling a happi very belated 21st birthday!!

The Monk and The Student

One day, there is this Monk and his Student.
Both of them, are going to cross a bridge while they saw
a young beautiful lady, who had injured her leg.

So the Monk being nice offer to carry her across the bridge.
Soon after crossing the brigde, the Monk let down the lady.
The lady is very much appreciated for the Monk's act and
left.

The student of the Monk is left confused during their way
back to the temple. Unable to withstand his curiosity and
confusion.
The student ask," Shouldn't we monks, avoid the 5 major sins? why did u
still insist on carrying the beautiful lady?"
(5 sins , women,gamble,eat meat,wine,enjoy luxury life)

So the Monk answer,"i have already let down the lady at the bridge, why haven
you?

Moral of the story, many things in life we should learn to let go
instead of holding on. That makes your life less burden and
worries, and hatred.

Have you let it go already?...